Becoming Jouzu.

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kaitagsd — Sat, 09 Apr 2011 08:34:52 +0000

Being beta

kaitagsd — Thu, 17 Mar 2011 16:30:36 +0000

I believe that one is beta simply whenever one is forced to take an alternate form of action then he originally intended (women cannot really be classified – all they want is an alpha male anyways).

Very simple – you are about to walk into someone. Whoever dodges or moves out of the way first is beta.

You might LOL and think… those are just manners.

I think not.

Manners are just an excuse to beta your way out.

If you are feeling dominant and aggressive, would you say Thank You or Sorry or Excuse me?

Fuck no!

Why do I need to be sorry or be excused?

While it is true that to function properly in everyday life, socially speaking that is, you need to be polite and have manners, I believe that if you have the balls to not give a fuck, then you will stand out. You will be respected by males more, and you will catch the eyes of females more.

Being beta is just a habit that you need to get rid of. Over time, being beta is a habit that accumulates. So I strongly urge anyone that wants to be a real dick to show their real selves. As long as you don’t aggravate others to the point of getting beat up or fired, then its alright. Being passive aggressive (swallowing down any rage and pretending to be fin) is the worst thing you can do to yourself. If you don’t see fit, then speak up and stand up about it. You will feel a much stronger sense of self-esteem, confidence, and integrity.

What about to friends? To people who have gained your trust and have shown their worth, then we can put down the alpha spear once in a while. That does not mean being beta. If they piss you off, and its gone beyond the lines, then return fire. Not returning fire is mature sometimes, but when lines are crossed, then punish.

Still, it is worth your time being nice to friends and family. To anyone you don’t know, it is better to put up the alpha spear and shield up. Don’t smile, don’t fidget, look them straight in the eye until they cower away. Don’t give them any benefit until they have shown their worth. Being nice only makes others exploit you, that is the truth of the real world. This isn’t some fairy tale where at the end of the day you and some new found friends go happily hop around in some grass field with sunflowers and bouncing bunnies.

Life isn’t about bowing down to others, listening to others dictating you, and being a little dominated shrimp. Everyone was born to have an equal chance to rule the world.

Provoking question of the day:

Would you kill someone for 200,000 knowing you will ever get caught, except the victim’s family and friends will be sad?

Certainly not for 5000 right? But what if you knew he or she would do the same to you if given the chance? Then would you do it?

Seemingly… no time for anything

kaitagsd — Wed, 16 Mar 2011 01:39:13 +0000

In no particular order, these are the things I’m interested in learning or doing:

Piano

At least one other instrument

Singing

Composing

Making quality music videos with myself doing a cover, at the same time converging with video-editing as a hobby

Rubik’s Cube (not really something I would invest more time in, but would not mind getting faster)

Badminton

Lifting, to the point where I can possibly compete at say, a weight of 150-160 lbs

Cooking

Photography

Playing the best video or computer games from time to time, but not as a gamer… say the big thing right now is Starcraft II, I want to get decently good at that, but find myself rather playing League of Legends instead :S

Philosophy

History (okay only a select few topics, not all)

Linguistics

Theoretical Physics (<– major like)

Environmental issues tied in with geography (something like a more realistic version of the Venus Project)

Conspiracies (think tin-foil hats)

Investing

Decoding women in general

Card magic tricks

Languages:

Japanese (extremely far away from mastering it, the other day I watched a movie in Japanese subtitles and they were speaking in Saga-ben, and I couldn’t understand anything at all if it wasn’t for my fast Chinese Kanji recognition speed)

German (close to English, great country, technologically advanced)

Korean (great country overall)

Hokkien (widely spoken by native Chinese in other Asian countries, said to be roughly similar to Taiwanese)

Mandarin (been learning for so many years… but put me with a Chinese from regions like Beijing or any of the Northern provinces and I don’t think I can hold a conversation at all…)

Malay (debatable, but I would like to visit the country and if I like it enough, settle there. Really like the idea of Muslims and Chinese living in harmony together, though I don’t know if that is true or not)

Shanghainese (said to be a means of communicating better with the upper class of Chinese consisting of wealthy and prominent people, such as businessmen)

Surprisingly, these are some things I have no interest in learning in the near-future:

Watching or playing any sport besides Badminton

Religion

Politics

Economy (must know what is going on, but otherwise, no Thanks)

Programming

Game design

Cars (too expensive for too little gain, all you are spending on is ultimately getting from point A to point B in a nicer looking piece of metal with wheels)

Gambling

Too much to name…

Seemingly is the first word in the title of this post. Why? Because we all have so much time. We just don’t have the mental energy. We feel tired after a long day of work or school, and we rather relax for a while. Isn’t it hard to learn continually for the whole day? Before you know it, we are procrastinating… and that means we will feel guilty if we start investing time in a hobby that no one other than you cares about and start sacrificing the more “important areas” of your life.

A beast [a personal thesis]

kaitagsd — Tue, 08 Mar 2011 05:57:09 +0000

By becoming a beast, in a primal form, I will become a truly efficient human being.

I will be able to neglect my emotions, and seek my basic desires without any hesitation: food and sex.

Lesser desires: knowledge, territory, and maybe things such as money.

We live day to day in an inefficient fashion. We waste time, we get hung up on emotional problems, we doubt ourselves, we inquire about our own identity, we dwell on the past, we put faint hope in the future… in a way, paralysis by analysis.

In a man’s most primal form, he will only seek what he wants.

How do you become a beast?

You return to nature.

That isn’t really possible in the urban jungles that take up our habitat, so we can only work from the mind.

Control your mind. Stop being a slave to it. Blow it up. Seek extreme forms of exercise that bring about exhaustion to a level that you slowly feel like you are just an animal in the wild. Then you will naturally run and seek food.

You get horny. You will seek a woman to copulate with. Sometimes I think that life’s purpose is to find a good enough female to produce offspring with and then nurture said offspring into beings of power and dominance. Isn’t that the motivation behind everything we do?

Listen to your primal instincts and stop playing retarded games of mental chess just to get her to bend down.

Inside every single human being exists the primal beast. One which must be unleashed to realize one’s full potential.

We have to go backwards to go forwards.

A dream

kaitagsd — Mon, 07 Mar 2011 13:51:16 +0000

I had a dream where I was working in a fictional Richmond Centre, across Pet Habitat. Everything looked different though.

I was having a normal break, it was around 1:30 PM. I was to go back to the store after flirting with some girl from another store during break time.

I went to the washroom first. It was a very strange washroom. It was very big, a ton of stalls, and there were doors for privacy but somehow the peeing stalls were all connected in a sense that I don’t know why there are doors.

The ceiling looked something like out of Richmond Public Market. If you lifted one of the ceiling tiles, you would see the clear sky. Except you can’t, since the washroom is underground.

I was peeing with my coworker, he finished earlier, and I saw a crazy white male that resembled a chipmunk looking rapist looking at me in the stall beside me. He was in his 60s, white hair, fat build. He proceeded to grope me. I fought back. He took out an orange cutter knife.

Somehow I used a technique I learned in one of those self-defense videos (Bas Rutten lol?) and knocked the knife out of his hand. A fight ensued. I stabbed him an odd 20 times.

I went back to work and apologized for my tardiness.

Why was I about to get raped by a man in the first place?

I am a man in a woman’s body. Thats why.

An ironic metaphor for what I am in the real conscious living world.

Sleep is important!

kaitagsd — Mon, 07 Mar 2011 01:49:50 +0000

Nostalgia

kaitagsd — Sun, 06 Mar 2011 23:53:02 +0000

These are the places where I used to see every single day as a little child.

Strong nostalgia.

Now that I wonder about it, even if I went back to my roots, and lived there, I’d still be another nobody.

Isn’t is so weird, strange, undescribable when you walk out of your house and look at your surroundings? Then you compare to a place where you used to live? Probably not a very strong contrast if you never lived in such a cluttered, populous, urban area as Hong Kong. The differences are mindblowing. There, you could walk to an extremely big mall that served as a hub for everyone in the local vicinity because of the connection to the subway station. Taking just a 10 minute ride on the subway you take you to another totally different area of Hong Kong, where it might be an industrial area, or a shopping district… everything changes so rapidly when you transcend a little distance, compared to here.

I drive 10 kilometres. Its still the same thing.

I don’t know if some times you can really say living in Vancouver, one of the world’s most livable cities, is really better. Its great for your health, great for your eyes (to see grass and blue skies), but for the individual who strives for a fast-paced life, its probably not the best place to live in.

And even now when I go back, I’m just another nobody. I would blend right in. What would I be doing? Can I even make any money? Do I have any skills?

Such as the irony of humans. We’re the most advanced species on Earth, yet it takes on average two decades to become a fully independent human that does not need to rely on parents anymore. Nowadays, its even longer. Whereas animals, from the very start, in a very short amount of time, can already fulfill their role in nature, without having to go through periods of confusion, doing nothing, wasting time.

Whenever I look upwards at the clear blue sky, I feel that I am connected to the world. I am looking at perhaps the same sky as those that are in Hong Kong are looking at. Yet everyone’s lives is so much different.

We are all meant to fulfill our own unique role in this society, and live out a specific purpose.

Where is mine, and how do I find it?

I feel that

kaitagsd — Sun, 06 Mar 2011 21:24:58 +0000

I always need someone to accomplish something in order to show me that a specific task, feat, or goal is within one’s limit to be obtainable before I feel comfortable and confident enough to pursue it.

Looks like with that mindset I’ll never be the “first” such as climb Mt. Everest, learn perfect pitch, run 100 m in under 10 seconds, sail across the ocean, build an airplane… things that were deemed impossible until someone had the balls to do it, and actually did it.

????

kaitagsd — Sat, 05 Mar 2011 09:05:24 +0000

Isn’t human interaction sometimes, if not most of the time, just a battle to see who has more confidence and dominance. See who can find a hole in each other’s logic first. See who can bring out the loser emotions in each other first. Who the hell actually abides by Dale Carnegie’s rules any more. Compliments, staying away from arguments, never saying anything of negativity. Where is it now.

I’m just sick of it.

You feel that the sincerity you are projecting onto others isn’t being reciprocated properly. Is it your problem for not being nice and genuine enough (really?) or is it the other person’s fault. I’d like to blame other people. That is the quickest and easiest solution to all problems.

Why can’t all people appreciate generosity.

Faggots.

Get the fak out of your repetitive lifestyle

kaitagsd — Sat, 05 Mar 2011 03:15:32 +0000

Here’s a great article by TD (Owen Cook) called ‘Processing the Long-Term:

Quote:

Today’s folks have a short attention span. Most people don’t have what it takes to be successful in any endeavour – be it getting through a long book, sticking to a diet, getting to the gym, or anything else that requires the implementation of a habit.

The average person can’t hold their own attention in a lecture that lasts longer than a few hours, and fewer still can retain and articulate a summary of what they learned. I laugh at how most people I know think that they will start businesses, and yet if they’re required to get to a simple task they can’t accomplish even that.
There’s an old adage “If you want something done, give it to a busy man.” Papa is a great example of that. He’s one of the busiest guys I know, but I can ask him for anything and it’ll be done almost for certain. He doesn’t have that “I want to keep myself in a happy state” issue to deal with, so the initial hard part of pulling himself out of a lazy state isn’t an issue.

The mind does not learn how to hold attention or switch states over night. It’s conditioned over long periods. To sit down and read a book for half an hour is hard for some people. For others, it’s easy to spend an entire day in study. The same goes for implementing habits.

For some people it is easy, because their mind is conditioned to *process* the long term benefits. Moreover, they have a history of having implemented habits and seeing a result from it (as opposed to someone who’s never accomplished something via a long term endeavour and so has no reference of what it would feel like).

The qualities that make you successful in the endeavour of becoming good with women are the same qualities that make you successful in life. The level of success that I achieved wasn’t bred over night. It was a culmination of previous patterns of success that I’d built over 20 years. Learning to pick up women wasn’t the first thing I applied myself to build a level of skill at, and it certainly won’t be the last.

I have no problem sitting inside all day to read something that will help me. And there is no doubt that after having done that, I WILL be able to articulate what I learned from that book – both in summary and in detail. I’ll also have a precise game plan of how I’ll IMPLEMENT and USE what I learned.

Generally I can learn from people and quickly filter out what is useless and find the positives. You will rarely hear me speak negatively of anything or anyone, because I am focused only on the positives of my experiences and what I can learn. People will ask me what I thought of a book and I’ll say “It was great.” They’ll point out all the flaws and ask me if I agree, and to that I respond that at this point for me to find any idea of perspective that I hadn’t come across is a good find. I saw the negatives, but they were filtered so quickly that I literally FORGOT about them.
I believe in INVESTING IN MYSELF. I view myself as WORTH IT. The ONLY reason that I wouldn’t invest money into my pool or knowledge or experience is if it wasted my TIME. Because I truly believe that with any new piece of information I can convert that into tangible gain far greater than the cost of the attainment of the knowledge itself. I believe in continual learning throughout your life, to keep yourself sharp, happy, relevant, and on the ball.

Most people, from my perspective, live life in a trance of reaction. There is no proactive steering of the ship. They just walk through life in a daze and react to things as they come up. They seek out structure to keep them in check, almost like grown up children. It is simply TOO HARD for them to implement habits that don’t yield instant results over the long term. Their minds aren’t conditioned to process it, beyond the immediate emotional reactions that they’re feeling. I sympathize, but honestly it’s just pathetic – if you feel that you are a part of this majority you should make it your life mission to change your status.
One of the ideas that’s been addressed about modern society is that boys are never taught how to be men. There are no rituals or responsibilities that SHIFT our child-like thinking from “How does this make me feel right now?” to “Am I living my values?” or “Is this (or the daily habits that I’m engaged in) moving myself closer or farther away from what I want out of life?”
I think that because most guys have not experienced a high level of pain in their lives, there is simply no reason for them to think this way. They don’t understand that to be PROACTIVE is to have a set of daily habits that will prevent that pains of life from coming up in the first place, and will create the awesome life that they want.

Their mind is not processing any harsh sense of immediacy, because it hasn’t made an emotional link between the way they live their lives and the lackluster way that their lives will end up. They just don’t see how severe the consequences are and they think they’ll live forever.
To me, to have lived a life without experiencing the best of what the world has to offer is a tragedy.. A total waste.
It’s crazy to me how people just don’t have the drive to pull themselves out of their repetitive lifestyle. You suggest taking a trip in a few months, and they’re all for it. But come time to do it, and it’s all “This will cost me money. I’ll have to inconvenience myself by being away from my daily grind.”

They don’t realize that time is ticking away.. That in ten years their mind won’t process how much they avoided inconveniencing themselves, but only the interesting and cool things that they did in between.

Guys are no different about the process of becoming good with women. They don’t process that there are all these amazing women out there that they will never experience – that they are missing out of one of the best things that life has to offer… That their life is BORING.

To me, there is only one priority in the area with women. GO OUT. Get out there and meet people. Get social experience under your belt.

Build it into your life. Create a plan and NEVER deviate from it – not even one time. Accept that it’s there the same way that you accept all crucial things in life. Make it a “part of who you are”.

Work to change the way you process things. Realize that you are getting old and that your life will pass you by FAST.

You need a detailed vision for what you want your life to look like by the time you die, and a detailed plan of what DAILY HABITS you need to REALIZE that life.
Revise and adapt that plan, but do so by your LOGIC and INTELLIGENCE, not by EMOTIONAL REACTION.

Stop processing things in terms of the immediacy of how it’s making you feel, and rewire your emotions to respond to whether or not you’re living your values and moving closer to your overall vision for yourself.

Do this, and do it continually, and your life will expand proactively instead of stagnate in a reactive haze like most of your friends.